Prayer of Mercy

A light surrounds the dark world;
A spiteful conqueror left us trapped
In our selfish lives

Love!
Lead us to the angels
Pull us out from the edges of doom
Take us to our King
So we shall be healed
Our wounded spirit needs nourishment
From the eternal waters of the Holy Well
Let us touch the beads
Decorating the majestic night sky
Wake us up
Wash away our filth
Bring us back
To the naivety of history
Where we can take our clothes off
And wander in boundless reverie.

My King,
Illuminate my voice
So they can hear my plea
Elongate my arms
So I could share my mercy
Give me wings so I could shower my love

Love!
Save us from the flames of the underworld
Free us from the dungeons of greed
Help us find you in ourselves
Help us to give ourselves mercy
Show us the path to eternity.

Just A Mushy Poem

Ode to a Dream...
My dear
I prayed to the moon to watch over you
As you tirelessly toil the whole night through
In the face of a drought, you stand strong
With only your heart as your weapon
We live in a world of cruelty and vice
Where even freedom has its own price
Still
Mine is a vision of a happy home
Filled with love and joy, amidst meager possessions
A sanctuary where our buds will grow
Seasoned with strength, wisdom and affection
Once they bloom, they'll be ready to face
A forsaken world with ultimate grace
My dear
For now we keep a prayer in our hearts
Hoping against hope that never will we ever part
Struggling to hold on to our faith
Never knowing how long this love will take
When all else fails, I'll hold your hand
Tight enough even destiny won't withstand.

Kwentong Surbaybor

Kung buhay ka sa oras na to..congratulations...ikaw ay isang surbaybor! Nasubukan mo na bang balikan ang mga araw na nagdaan kung saan dumanas ka ng pagod --pisikal, mental o emosyonal at nasabi mo sa sarili mo "Nakaya ko ba talaga yun?"

Hmmm.. san ba ko magsisimula ng aking kwentong surbaybor? Ah ok, nung ako'y niluwal..ay di pala, hinugot...(CS kasi ang nanay ko nung pinanganak ako kaya di ko alam yung term) mula sa bahay bata ng nanay ko, dinanas ko agad ang isang immunity challenge. My blood type was A,B,O; parang international blood type..hehehe...kaso lason yun; fortunately I survived. Kaso ung nakalagay dun sa baby book ko depressed baby; no ba yun, baby pa lang may problema na.

Sunod naman ay nung nakalunok ako ng buto ng chico o tsiko (ung brown na prutas) at nagsugat ang lalamunan ko...tapos ay nahawa ako ng tuberculosis sa lolo ko. Naranasan ko ding masugatan ang daliri ko dahil tinesting kong ipasok sa umaandar na electric fan at napatunayan kong masakit pala.

Nung nag-aral naman ako sa elementary, parusa ang araw-araw na pagdadala ng bag na may gulong na mala-maleta na may 8 makakapal na textbooks at ang iba ay may kapartner pang workbook at 8 ding notebook. Araw-araw may assignment, tulo na uhog mo sa pagsosolve ng math problems at paggawa ng project na imposibleng magawa ng isang elementary pupil; buti na lang nandyan si nanay.

Sa high school naman, everyday ka makikipag-struggle sa insecurities mo. Bakit may mas maganda sa'yo; pano magiging sikat; pano ka maliligawan. Well failure ako dyan sa area na yan kaya di ko nalang pinilit. Hinayaan ko na lang ulit tumulo ang uhog ko at mapaihi sa pagsosolve ng mas mahihirap pang math problems at pagsasaulo ng halos buong libro.

Ah, nga pala, kasama din sa challenge yung paglalakad sa parada kapag intrams at pagsisinungaling kapag may lakad kasama ng barkada. Hirap magisip ng excuses. Lagi kang nakatingin sa relo; hindi rin naman makapagenjoy. Hehehe.

Nung college naman, ganun pa rin hirap sa pag-aaral pero mas masaya dahil may kaunting freedom na. Yung mga challenges na di ko malililimutan ay ang mga initiation sa mga organizations; pag-akyat sa National Arts Center habang bumabagyo, kumain ng sili, at magbabad sa pool ng naka-formal attire ng ala-una ng madaling araw. Napakalaking hamon ang maging officer ng isang organization at maging editor ka pa ng dyaryo habang nagmemaintain ng grade dahil may ambisyon sa title. Pagdating sa relasyon, challenge din yun kasi kailangan ilihim sa parents kasi bawal. Nakakainis talaga yun. Hirap mag-isip ng dahilan, buti na lang, marami akong extra-curricular activities kaya may nagamit akong excuses. Hehehe.

Ang araw-araw na pagcocommute, pagtawid-tawid at pagkabulok sa traffic ay napakalaking hamon din. May risk na mabangga, manakawan at magkasakit dahil sa libo-libong germs sa lansangan; malas mo pa kapag kinulbit ka ng batang kalye.

Pero sa kabila nito, i'm still here writing this blog and happily struggling with more challenges. Always be reminded that the challenges in our lives are evidence of our existence. You're struggling because you are alive.

A Man's Worth

Standing up -- for oneself, for one's principle, family, friends, loved ones and even God -- is not always easy. There will be times that our ability to stand up for what we believe in, what we love, will be put to the test by wealth, social acceptance and other personal comforts. The true test of a man is standing up for love and faith in the face of danger, ridicule and loss. How much we could sacrifice for love, truth, justice, freedom and faith (sounds like the preamble pala) determines our worth as a person.
Every Christian's mission is to spread the Wisdom of God and create change upon people's lives. It does not need to be a great influence; no matter how smal an impact we made even upon a single person's life will already make a difference.
If each of us amend our lives and influence at least one person to do the same, the world will become a better place to live in. But the process is not easy -- danger, ridicule and even death are difficult prices we have to pay for standing up for what truly matters to us; and that is the true test of man's courage; of man's worth as a person.

There is Love; Therefore There is God

To see is to believe. This is the motto of the atheist, the non-believer, the smart person who thinks he's too good for faith. At least, the faithful has a proof of God's existence - love. Come to think of it, many also deny the existence of love so it follows that they also reject God's existence. What a pity. The world is created by God out of love; love is supposed to make the world go round. Unfortunately, many equate love with transient concepts such as lust, obssession, infatuation, necessity and other worldly things. None of these, is, in any way, related with love.
Love, in its true essence, is a combination of loyalty, respect, sacrifice, understanding, selflessness, trust and faith -- the examples set for us by Jesus Christ. True love look past physical appearances, wealth and all human imperfections. Love is not always about being happy; half of it entails pain. It's a balance of joy and painful sacrifice.
So there, my friends, is your proof of God's greatness and goodness. If you believe in love, true love, you believe in God because God is love. Let love live in your hearts and surely God will always be with you. Peace.

Who Am I? A Sinner at the Mercy of God

Man thinks highly of himself. He thinks he's so smart inventing and rationalizing things. But what man doesn't know is that in spite of his riches and knowledge, he lost wisdom and love which could only be found in God. What's more revolting is the fact that man even questioned God and even renounced God claiming that he [man] was created through some chemical reaction and biological evolution.

But in spite of this, God's promise remains. The freewill God gave man is the greatest manifestation of His love. God gave man a choice though He wanted man to love Him. But God's love is so great that He wanted man to want to love Him; yet this love was renounced by man.

God, inspite of this repulsion, chose to continue to love and forgive man despite of what he is.